I came early from the office. It was 7.00 PM in the office.
I thought I should spend some time with my wife. Today I will have two extra hours that can be utilized effectively.
Generally I reach home at around 9 in the night.
I called my wife at 5 in the evening and told her that I would be reaching home early today as my boss was not available in the office. Then we would be going out for a long walk.
My wife seemed happy as could be judged from her tone.
My wife was cooking for me when I reached home at 7.
She cooked my favourite items- Fried Potatoes and Masoor Dal.
I was very happy eating these dishes.
We chatted for 15-20 minutes and then she switched on TV to watch her favourite serial. The serial was for 30 minutes. I watched TV for few minutes but it was not of my interest. I thought of reading newspaper. After about 20-25 minutes, my wife changed channel and was watching another favourite serial.
I thought of asking my wife if she was interested in going out but looking at her face I thought of not disturbing her. She was smiling while watching her favourite really show.
I picked up novel “Icebound” by Dean Koontz and was lost in reading it for a long time.
I looked at watch. I felt bad. It was 10 in the night and we generally sleep by this time.
I cursed myself and thought why I did not go out immediately after reaching home or at least after finishing dinner.
Once we were on the bed, I thought of asking her if she felt bad for not going out. But thoughts came into my mind if I should ask her or not.
Finally I decided to ask her so that it does not remain buried in my heart.
“Did you feel bad for not going out”?
Wife replied calmly “You were tired when you came from office so I thought of not disturbing you”.
I felt relieved. I asked why she switched on TV when she knew that we had to go out.
She again said calmly “You have interest in reading that you generally cannot do on other days as you come late in the night so I did not feel like disturbing you”.
I was feeling bad inside. I was expecting some harsh words from her.
Infact I wasted this precious time in all other things except the one of going out.
We love one another very much and cater to very minute needs of one another. We also say I Love You Darling.
But sometimes it becomes necessary to express it which can be in any form.
Going out was one of them. This is what I thought. I cannot say about anyone else.
One should spend some time with family whenever you get time. Do not indulge in things that can be done without one another.I had wasted my precious time and was feeling bad for myself and my wife.
I decided that next time whenever I got this opportunity we will go out for a walk and then will continue with our daily routine. Otherwise same will happen in future.